I am early stages of educating myself about TMS. One of the hardest things for me over the past 4 months of pain have been that I can not exercise. I am a runner, and along with my competative personality, was doing better and better at running, pushing myself to improve times and fitness. When I was active, running probably became a bit too much a part of my life, a little too much time was spent either doing it, thinking about it, or worrying if I missed a run. I spent the last 4 months with no exercise due to pain ( and before finding TMS ). In those 4 months I went through a lot of emotions about not being able to run. Initially, upset, stressed, up tight, felt sorry for myself. Then over a bit more time, I got some perspective on my running and realised it had become too much of an obsession. So, then I was slightly grateful that I now could see I was too engrossed in running and everything it stood for for me ( weight control, fitness, de-stressor ). Then I was happy to not run again, as long as I could exercise in some way. I've been reading about TMS for 2 weeks now and am 95% sure I have it. The past 2 weeks have been fairly good pain wise, so I have done 2 very small runs and 1 cycle ride and have had no problems. Then ( from what seems like no where ) last night my pain returned to a level 7 I'd say. I went to bed and tried to ignore it. I woke with pain during the night and this morning still have pain of a level 6-7. I can't seem to get to the bottom of my emotions to understand these pain triggers. Hence, this thread really. I'm journaling! What I will add is that because the 2 runs were a success, I am already thinking about when I can next go. So, perhaps slipping back into the running obsession ( although I'm really trying to keep my new found perspective ). I have also started my 'Past traumatic events/stress list' today and am not really sure what I'm putting on it is the right thing. I'm a classic case of ' nothing bad happened to me in the past ' - I had a great childhood, and now have great husband/children. So, I have listed memorable events that happened ( ie, a funeral ) but I'm not convinced it had an impact on me at the time?!? Go away pain!!!!! Please.