butterytoast

You can get Butter! I mean better!
I first experienced mind/body symptoms when enrolled in a competive professional program. It stayed for years and years as I got a job in the industry I trained for, it became my constant companion. After trying every sort of treatment and therapy I could find, I stumbled upon 'Healing Back Pain' in the local bookshop while awaiting a physio. When I got home I got in an old "back unfriendly" hammock chair with a blanket and sat and read and read. I stuck with it, as nothing else was working so why not try it? I kept telling myself just try another day, be brave, don't run to a therapy, don't stretch, don't even rub that sore spot. One day at a time, it very slowly over the course of years just withdrew, and withdrew until my own sense of control grew stronger than my fear. Amazing. For the record, I have had migraines, muscle spasm sessions anywhere from top of neck to tailbone, hip pain, knee area pain, foot pain, tingling, zapping, stabbing, twistings, wretched every damn thing, weird runny eyes, red face, sore toes, hands and oh my.

So now I am an operational person who simply encounters the odd issue with compassion and curiousity to 'do the work that needs to be done', to journal and ask 'what is the feeling I am not feeling' and ' what is the situation / emotion / stressor' that this benign physical alarm bell is directing my attention to.