frenchgazelle

I'm a 38 year old woman, and I've been suffering for almost 10 years.

I've read 2 of the Dr Sarno's books. I really am just like he writes, trying to be a good person, stressful an anxious.

I'm now trying Dr Sarno's recovering program, but it's hard for me to believe that my current
pains can be TMS. About previous pains which I recovered after months or years, I can now see
that they could be TMS, but it's quite harder for the new ones.

I've got a long ache story : 8 months after my first child was born, I blocked my SI joints. During months, the SI joint were blocking more and more often. I had a nervous breakdown, due to the pain. During 7 years, I saw doctors, rheumatologist,
chiropractors, acupuncturist, and had many exams scanner, MRI...There was nothing really
structural. I made changes in my life, choose to work near from home, tried sportive activities, but I every time I tried, I hurt my back.

3 years ago, I thought I had solved my SI joint problem thanks to a physio specialized of pelvis, I had the best summer in my life, feeling free again ! And then, I spread my right ankle. Nothing really wrong, but a few weeks later, after a hard swimmming session, I was unable to walk. It got worse and worse, I saw specialists, had radios, scan, an
echo that revealed a very little tendonitis, nothing that could explain why I had to use crutches.After 6 weeks without working, nothing new, except that I also had a shoulder tendonitis due to the crutches.

This ankle pain lasted nine months. I still had to be very
careful, limit each walk, avoid trampling. It has finally improved. Then I spread my other ankle, did everything well and still hardly recovered.
I now see that the tendonitis were probably TMS.

A couple of weeks ago, I blocked my cuboid bone on my left
ankle, during a physiotherapy session. A week later, I blocked a bone in my other foot, the right one: just being sited on my ankle, I moved, felt a pain and heard a crack. I could hardly walk, I saw an osteopath who twice unblocked my bone. I could walk a bit again. But a few days later, my ankle was still hurting in another place, and it began to swell,
just over the tendon. I saw the physiotherapist, who told me I had a tendonisis.
I'm in despair, it's the same tendonitis as 3 years ago, when I had to wait 9 months to recover a bit...I was told that after a chronic tendonisis, the tendon is weaken, and just an osteopathic manipulation can cause it ?!

I really don't know what to think. Just after blocking my cuboid bone on the left foot, I had decided to try to read again Sarno's books, and to begin journaling. I was almost sure that the foot pain was due to TMS...but as the physiotherapist said the bone was blocked, it was hard to believe it could be TMS. And for the talus boneblocking, I thought it was only a mecanical problem. Quite worrying, because I have the feeling that my ankles and foot are very weak.

I really believe that emotions can cause pain. During my childhood, I had a very hard moment : as I was 6, my father had a very serious stroke that left him paralyzed on his left side. I'm trying
to work on this part of my life with psychotherapy and EFT (which helped me much about another traumatic event of my life).