Body nerve pain relapse

A summary of my story which I originally posted Dec 2015: I had injured my neck on an amusement park in August 2015 and that same night I started getting numbness and pain in my arms and legs. The neck pain didn't start later. Went through physical therapy, acupuncture, chiropractor, neurologists, neurosurgeon, 2 mris, X-rays, emg, gabapentin and nothing helped. The pain was unbearable. Started reading healing back pain and TMS and the pain started to diminish around January 2016 with some minor relapses. I have been doing well for the past 2 years. I would still get some weird sensations but nothing painful. This past Wednesday I lifted my neices son in a baby carrier to take to his doctor's appointment. He is 1 years old and shouldn't be carried in a carrier so the weight was around 30 lbs? I have feelings of resentment towards my niece because she didn't make an effort to carry her own son. I was just driving them to a doctors visit as the baby was sick. That same night I started to feel the weird sensations in my arms and legs and then the neck pain. I currently have the same symptoms as before. Shooting pain, numbness, cramping, twitching etc. I am going crazy now as I never thought I would have to deal with this again. It was one of the worst experiences in my life.

I am re-analyzing my situation and thinking that my original pain was actually structural and never TMS and that my neck eventually healed and now I injured it again? I can't understand why it would affect my arms and legs unless something is touching my spinal cord? I haven't had any good sleep since Wednesday and I don't know what to do. I don't want to go through the whole process of again of going to the doctors, pt etc. I know if I get another MRI, it won't look good and will increase my anxiety and will delay my healing. I feel scared. My husband is supportive, but he did have a breaking point with my last episode.

 

Thanks Jan. Sorry, I will delete mri. I guess I want to believe it is tms because I did go through all the steps of going to doctors the first time and there were no answers and nothing helped. I know my anxiety made the symptoms worse and delayed my healing. I guess I don't know if I should first focus on my subconscious or go the medical route. I am second guessing everything. I had a bout with acid reflux this past summer and I did go to the doctors and had endoscopy. I eventually calmed down and recovered after nothing was seen in endoscopy.

 

Merilu,

The fear of nerve pain will bring on nerve pain and weirdness really quick.

Unless you have brittle bones, most adults should be just fine lifting a toddler. It seems to me that you felt harassed by having to help, even if you volunteered to help.

When I'm angry I tense up my muscles. Try to speak gently to yourself. Say things like: "I am safe. I release whatever need I had to recreate pain. I'm listening to my emotions. They aren't wrong. I don't need to be afraid of this being an injury. I am well."

best wishes,
Marcia