Day 1 Choosing to commit to this programme

I have experienced constant debilitating symptoms for over a year now, centred around dizziness, fatigue, brain fog and heart racing with many more symptoms that have come and gone. As I have read more about TMS (which I have for the last six months) I have realised that there is a history of TMS - chronic tension headaches, a year of weird skin rashes, RSI, chronic neck and back pain, plantar fasciitis, anxiety and OCD tendencies.

These debilitating symptoms started after an intense period of anxiety after a natural disaster in our region, followed by extreme anxiety about my health and dying/leaving behind my two small children. My family also has a history of family members dying from heart attacks so all of a sudden I was aware of my heart and became hypervigilant about the sensations of my heart beat.

When I first read about TMS six months ago it really resonated and I thought this really made sense to me. I started to make some progress using Curable and somatic tracking in particular but the little anxiety voice of doubt in my head kept creeping in and winning (the what if the drs missed something in their tests, what if TMS isn't the diagnosis for me, what if I am the one who can't get better type thoughts). I also just read Claire Weekes Hope and Help for your Nerves which felt like it spoke directly to me as my symptoms are more aligned with this then just chronic pain and it helped my brain to read about my specific symptoms and that they are also considered to be mind body.

Anyway, I am here deciding to dive into this programme and gently work on acceptance that this is TMS and that I can recover!