Day 9 Critical to me about career choice

First, I share the new URL that works to read the article for this Da9 : https://abigailsteidley.com/your-physical-alarm-system/comment-page-1/ (Your Physical Alarm System – My Blog)

Have you been overly critical of yourself lately?
Oh yes a lot, about the fact I feel not able to really work anymore, and even feel worse to do not be sure in which field : should I start again in IT management coaching, should I do it in a company or as a freelancer, should I produce only trainings, should I try another thing totally different (my current project is to create an online service for french TMS sufferers). Should I wait my second baby in may and just enjoy life... but is it a way to postpone solving my problem ?
A lot of questions, since a lot of years. That makes me feel so sad and angry from myself. I fell not being normal, as I see so many people working without theses questions, and other owning their own business with ambition and energy. I feel lost, and not knowing which is the right direction for me, and how long to try this direction and change if it's not working...