Day 1 Coccyx Pain

I developed coccyx pain/Coccydinia over four years ago when I was pregnant with my first child. This means I have moderate/severe pain in my tailbone when I sit for anything longer than 10 minutes or so. This causes a lot of discomfort when sitting for everyday things like watching tv/having meals/driving etc. I’m pretty sure it is TMS as the pain began during a time of great life change for me. (Pregnancy, new relationship, quitting my job of 15 years and leaving my home place to move to the other end of the country to be with my new partner). This was all positive change and has worked out very well (I am now married with two children) but the pain has not gone away despite numerous interventions (osteopathy, acupuncture, physiotherapy, special cushion, prescription pain-killers, steroid injections, nerve block injections). I have had temporary relief from the nerve blocks but the pain always comes back. It is now back but I have not booked another appointment for a nerve block as deep down I know it is not the solution, and will not solve this problem, which I believe is emotional/stress/tension/fear/anxiety related. I have read quite a bit about TMS over the past two years or so and I understand the concept but I still have pain. Given the time of year, I would like to leave this pain behind and re-discover life as a person who does not suffer from this problem of chronic pain

 

I have started Journalspeak by Nicole Sachs LCSW and miraculously finding the coccyx pain improving. However, I’ve noticed neck and upper back pain beginning to take its place. I know this is a feature of TMS, that the pain moves around. I’ve also found myself smothered with a head cold on a number of occasions since starting the journalSpeak, and when I look back, I realise continual head colds started to appear on and off around two years ago when I was pregnant with second child. . I initially suspected this must be related to an allergy (I have dust allergy and allergy to animal hair) or Covid (did numerous tests but never tested positive) but I’m beginning to wonder if it’s actually TMS related. It’s hard to keep up the motivation for the JournalSpeak , i’m inclined to not want to do it. It is not easy facing all of these emotions I have suppressed over the years. Also, as the pain has improved I can tend to think I’m already ‘fixed’ and don’t need to journal anymore. Also it is hard work as well as having a full time job and two very young children to keep me busy so trying to find the time and the privacy to do the JournalSpeak is a challenge. I also have fear of what will be revealed to me as I write. I suppose all of these excuses are the resistance that Nicole describes. But I will persevere. Thanks for reading.