Week 0 Day 1

So, I know that Sarno is right. I know that the program works. About 12 years ago I found the Divided Mind when I was looking for books on anxiety because I was going off to college and freaking out. I had been having bowel issues, out of nowhere, for a few months. Everything was fine then all of the sudden I was shitting blood literally every time I went to the restroom (TMI...oh, well). I panicked and thought my life was ruined. I found the Sarno book and it literally changed my life. This pain and disorder that was becoming part of my life was losing its power and I realized the power of the mind because of this. I would have shit pop up here and there always the last decade. It never sticks but I have everything from shoulder issues, to lower back, knee, jaw pain thingy...all kinds of bullshit. Well, now I have created massive heartburn, slow digestion, gerd, overall digestive sensitivity. Everything I eat causes some bullshit. I think about it all the time. It makes me totally unhappy. It scares me because I can't eat without feeling shitty. I'm a business owner, I have two little kids, I've been married for 17 years almost. I struggle with paying for all this. We are a family business and we are always around each other. I was an only child and now I am constantly around people, which is a trip. And, I am pretty athletic and pretty much hold myself to a standard of intellectual and physical perfection. I also try to take care of everyone. But, I am here and committed to finishing the program. I've made myself very miserable and its getting old. I am ready to move beyond the fear and the misery.

 

Thank you Jan. I will post the whole time. This is a rest of life commitment for me. Not just when I'm creating hiatal hernia fear, gerd, choking paranoia. But, also when things are good and not taking good for granted and realizing we're all works in progress. I appreciate your comment.