Day 16 My own insecurities cause me stress

I am realizing through this process how very insecure I really am. I think this is because my parents didn't provide the nurturing that children need. When I was the age of about 11 my parents separated and then I was suddenly responsible for my much younger adopted brother and sister. My mother started having mental health issues and was suicidal. By the time I was in 7th grade things had gotten very bad at home and it continued that way through my teen years. I never felt confident in what I did or who I was. And I still don't. My inner child is still crying.

I am working on developing my confidence at work. I am not proud of myself at work. I feel like I should be trying harder to get a promotion. Like I should do as well as my son who is only 24 and makes quite a bit more than I do. It makes me feel like such a failure.
If I really think about it though I enjoy what I do and I don't want to travel for work which would happen if I moved into a different position on my team.

Doubting myself and my own judgment causes me stress.

I will learn how to be kind to myself and love myself for who I am every day.