Day 2=angry outburst

I looked ahead a week ago knowing I would be starting the program when I returned from a trip. I had been thinking about "things that make me angry" and "things that make me sad."

I was playing bridge this afternoon. My partner and I got into a conflict with our opponents about what was the correct score. After much discussion, I blurted out "this really pizzez me off". I have never done this before. I felt really proud of myself for expressing my anger. Did it have to do with deciding not to repress my emotions?? I am always so very controlled.

The Director of the bridge game made the call which supported our position. Well, you know how important it is for me to be "right." ( I am working on that one too.)

All my life I have had the fear of "not being good enough." It has been a heavy cloud draped over my shoulders for many many years.

 

Sandy, where did feeling not being good enough come from? Can you think back to a time where you felt that way as a child? This is worth exploration. Getting to the root of the feeling can eliminate current day triggers.

Best wishes!