Day 8 Progress not perfection

Aloha-

I am on day 8 of the program but have spent a few extra days at times due to the desire to not overload myself with too many rapid thoughts all at once. I have been making sure to follow the program as best as I can and appreciate all the support. I have enjoying much needed rest, therapeutic yoga, dance classes, weight lifting, cleaning my house and cooking for my family again, and meditating and journaling etc.

I see a therapist weekly now and will for sure until the last structured education "day" at this frequency . I realize I am looking at a life commitment for my continued healing. Until yesterday I had gone over 52 hours with no arm pain/tendinitis. The longest in over 4 yrs. It was wonderful although still on my mind. Yesterday my therapist said I may have developmental PTSD from my early childhood so I regressed back into the pain for about 2 hours. I felt immediately well again after a long walk with my dog and journaling how this possible diagnosis made me feel. This news (or label) made me feel like my feelings have been validated and I am excited to know exactly how to heal my body through my mind-body connection. Good bye IBS, neck pain, lock jaw, frequent urination, tendinitis, anxiety, and depression. I will work the program, listen to my past and present feelings and continue to grow. I am unstuffing my feelings and it is not as bad as I thought it would be all these years. I am beginning to remember how I felt as a young child and how scared, alone, unsupported, and fearful I felt so much of the time and that is just fine.

I see a great future full of new improved relationships with family and friends as well as MY ADULT SELF. I will make a great family therapist someday and this entire experience will allow me to be a great support for my family, my clients, and most importantly myself.

Thank you to all.

 

Wow...look at you.
I, too, see a lifetime commitment. I am 5 years out of the program. I work my program every day. Physical exercise, meditation, Journaling, constant awareness of the personality traits. I stray sometimes due to life interruptions but always go back when my mind or body start talking to me.

I have had a lifetime of depression and now I don't. That was huge too. All tied to the personality traits.

 

Wow, Jamie. What an impressive way to work the program--as a life-changing event. I did not have such a measured approach; I sucked up the SEP like a kid slurping a milkshake!
I'm delighted that you're finding that the SEP is life-changing. That's the goal.
Blessings on your journey. The possibilities are endless.

 

Yes, I've been looking for a major change to happen in my life for a long time and have finally found it.

 

Hi, Jamie and Gigi and Stella. Jamie, it was wonderful to read your post about how life-changing TMS knowledge is for you. It did the same to me when I learned about Dr. Sarno about three years ago. It healed me from back pain by journaling to discover I had years of repressed emotions going back to my parents divorcing when I was seven years old. I am almost 86 now and am thankful to the Lord for giving me the back pain so I learned about TMS. And I know that TMS is an on-going thing, as new problems and come along. Living isn't always easy or pain-free, but it sure beats the alternative. Or does it?
I've read a lot of great quotes from some brilliant people who say the best is yet to come. I sure hope so, but meanwhile I'm remembering the wonderful times I've already had and look forward to more.