Day 8 Question: Are you having success at recognizing the emotions connected to your pain?

Question to Ponder: Are you having success at recognizing the emotions connected to your pain? If you have, how do these emotions make you feel? If not, what do you think is preventing you from doing this?

A: I am not having success at recognizing the emotions connected to my symptoms. I think what is preventing me from doing this is fear, so at the moment I am in a state of denial. I have been living under the belief that I am a good-hearted person. That my intentions are good not bad. I wanted to kill my mother for her lack of caring, nurturing attention & protection as a child. I felt wrath towards all the injustice of my life (most of which came from her) as a teenager. But now, as a peri-menopausal, Jesus-loving woman, I do expect wisdom from myself via the Holy Spirit, of course.

Today I started with an unsent letter to my mother which turned into the real spiritual warfare with Satan. Finishing with thanking God for strengthening me, gifting me with eyes that see, a heart that seeks the truth & willingness to live by His law. Laying claim to His life of victory, abundance & a future of hope without harm.
Writing in the 3rd person helped but it was more powerful to speak the truth from my own, present voice. That is the voice I am now hearing inside my head, which is assertive with my brain & strong in my boundaries. It’s a voice I’m new to, but I really like & feel safe with - for the first time in my life!

Thank you, 42-day program, for giving me that. That I may have peace with being me in this world.
Praise God for His provision, patience, mercy, faithfulness & everlasting love!