Day 9

I have finished reading Scott Brady's book Pain Free for Life and am combining some of that program with the SEP. I especially liked the information about visualization and imagery- visualizing myself being able to do things without pain. I also thought the chapter on deep journaling was very helpful.

I had started this SEP 2 years ago but stopped. I'm not sure why because I did feel like I was getting better. I don't think I was 100% convinced I have TMS.

I also don't understand why all the therapists I saw over the years didn't help and I still ended up with this pain. I feel like I have been over and over my crappy childhood and my moms mental illness, my parents divorce, etc. but obviously I still have many repressed feelings. I am starting to catch myself now when I feel stressed or insecure at work. Or angry at my husband. I do feel like I am making progress.

 

Visualization and imagery are excellent tools in TMS healing. I combine them with a mantra: "I can do anything I set my mind to. I can do this... It's a piece of cake."

It may not be easy, but more patient you can be with your husband and others, the better you will feel.

 

I actually tried talking to my pain for the first time yesterday when I was mopping the floor. I always have pain in my lower back when I am doing housework. It did help some so I will keep doing that whenever I have to do things that cause me pain.

On a positive note my husband is beginning to see that he also had TMS and is listening to the things I am telling him. He also understands that I do write things about him in my journal because it helps me heal and have a place to express my feelings and emotions. I have encouraged him to start journaling to get to the root of his feelings when he is having a bad day. He has IBS, panic attacks, migraines, back pain and shoulder pain. Some of it is structural but the IBS and panic attacks are not.