Day 1 Day one: let's go

So here it goes. I believe in TMS and hopefully my symptoms are cause of TMS. Severe back pain after doing deadlifts 8 months ago. Sciatica and now tingling and numbness of the foot. Had drop foot which is getting better. Pain travels. I've had pain in my shoulder, neck, near heart area (had all sorts of heart test and they didn't find anything wrong) and sometimes upper back. My shoulders are so sensitive to touch it's insane!
Excited to go through this program

 

Hi, tmann. Welcome to the TMS community. You had tests that showed nothing structural, so your pains are TMS, from your emotions present or past. The pains move around because as Dr. Sarno says, the subconscious wants you to discover your repressed anger. The SEProgram will help you to do this.
It has worked for me and thousands of others. It takes total 100 percent belief in TMS causing pain. You are understandably excited and eager to go through the SEProgram, but try to be patient in it. TMS pain probably goes way back in your youth and the anger that caused has built up over the years Some people heal fast from knowing about TMS while for others it can take longer. But the healing does come! Be confident in that. Try to keep doing normal activity and exercise if you can, even if it is slow and gentle. You will be back to deadlifts soon. For now, easy does it.

Dr. Sarno writes about his 12 Daily Reminders about TMS in his book, Healing Back Pain. Here is an extended version by Herbie, one of the many people who healed from TMS pain:


Herbie’s Extended Version of Dr. Sarno’s 12 DAILY REMINDERS

1. The pain is due to TMS. This is real pain or anxiety but it is caused by subconscious tensions and triggers, stressors and traits to your reactions and fears and also when at boiling point your conscious tension can and does also cause real pain.
2. The main reason for the pain is mild oxygen deprivation. This means that when you get in pain or anxiety then the blood is restricted from going to your lower back, for instance. The blood being restricted causes oxygen deprivation which causes the pain. Remember, where there is no oxygen then there is pain in the body. Also, the pain stays because of fear.
3. TMS is a harmless condition caused by my REPRESSED EMOTIONS so even though you think you can harm yourself from the years of pain you have felt and how you feel in general -- so far no reports have been heard from TMS healing knowledge causing damage to anyone, it only helps.
4. The principle emotion is your repressed ANGER -- this means under your consciousness lies something that happens automatically to everyone. TMSers have repressions that are stored because of our personality traits, traumas, stressors, fears, strain, etc... When these stored repressions build and build, then eventually they cause the brain to send pain into your body to keep you from having an emotional crises. The mind-body thinks it is helping you.
5. TMS exists to DISTRACT your attentions from the emotions, stressors, tensions and strains of your personality traits because if you can get distraction then you won’t have to be in emotional turmoil. When you don't face and feel your emotions and they get repressed because you didn't want to deal with something -- they are just adding up in this beaker, ready to pour over and create real pain and anxiety in your body.
6. Since my body is perfectly normal, there is nothing to fear. So in reality when I fear the pain or anxiety I just cause myself undo strain and tension adding to the beaker of pain. If I fear, then I feed the pain, If I fear, it’s impossible to recondition. Fear keeps the pain and anxiety alive in the body through focus.
7. Therefore, physical activity is harmless. If I want to work against the pain I could but it’s better to lose some of the pain so when I start my life over I have to be in pain trying to heal because facing the repressions and all the other activities that cause the pain and reversing my fear and focus to them, then I can heal.
8. I am resuming all normal physical activity. I don't fear moving anymore. I believe in my body’s ability to heal now. I can move as I want. I will not fear moving with a bent back anymore. I will also practice going out and acting normal again, not in fear of what pain might do to me.
9. The pain is unimportant and powerless. Its only power is how it is hidden -- its illusion, its fear.
10. I will keep my attention on the emotional issues. I will think about my emotions and feel my emotions throughout the day. I will not judge, criticize or fear my emotions. I will not run from my emotional issues but face every one of them. I will feel my emotions fully and cry if I need to. Then I will release the emotion and get my mind and thoughts back to my life and living in the present.
11. I am in control of all of this. This is how I recover.
12. I will be thinking PSYCHOLOGICALLY AT ALL TIMES. This means I will keep my thoughts on psychological issues like happiness, fear and anger -- traits and triggers, conditioning and journaling -- The science behind mind-body/TMS healing, etc.... This way I will not feed my thoughts to the body -- that is a trick of TMS. TMS will always try to get me to focus on the body caused by the pain until I break its show and flair. When I get my attention off physical symptoms and on to emotional issues and psychological issues then I will not feed the fear of the physical issues anymore, thus making the TMS of no pain effect on the body. This will in return, give us the cure and become pain-free.

 

Thanks for the reply! I had an MRI that showed 13 mm disc herniation and pinched nerve.
But I've read so many stories that herniation isn't the main source of pain and all the other symptoms make me feel like TMS is the main source. I'm excited to try the program

 

Hi tmann welcome to this wonderfully supportiveTMS community. I think the excitement you feel is a really positive indicator that you have found what you need to heal. But as Walt says, be patient with yourself as it is not usually an easy journey. It has its ups and downs but thru this forum you will gain all the support and encouragement you need to persist. And it is an amazing journey not just to physical healing but of personal discovery. Travel well!

 

Welcome tmann! I'm thrilled for you that you found your way here.
As Moppy mentioned, recovery tends to be a bit cyclic, but hang in there. I've found that the SEP helps you address all sorts of issues, and provides a great many wonderful resources as well.
Be gentle with yourself on the journey.