Day 11 Exercise and fear

I have been pushing through and continuing to exercise. I'm a runner and lift weights. I'm terrified every time I do it, though. My pain spreads more than moves and constantly makes me think I'm extending damage. With having the syrinx diagnosis, even with assurances from a neurosurgeon on safety, fear gets the best of me regularly as the pain in the right side of my back wraps around into my ribs and abdomen. It didn't help that a mod in one of the mindbody groups on FB felt the need to remind me a syrinx is a true structural problem and I either needed to trust my doctor or get a second opinion when I tried to talk about my fear.

Anyway. I ran the farthest I have in a while today, 6.9 miles. High ouch factor this evening and I'm scared, but I don't want to lose exercise until the neuro tells me I have to. I'm struggling though.