Happy for a mini cycle on my anniversary

Not my wedding anniversary, my TMS anniversary! But its still a success story.

It's been about a year since I hit my TMS rock bottom. It's been a pretty stressful past month at home and then we got a dog. Sort of like a child, it doesnt matter what you read or people tell you, you dont know what you have done until its in your house.

My big demon: anger, woke up the TMS monster and I went through this little mini-TMS cycle that was almost the same as when I was at rock bottom: back kicked in, leg pain, foot pain and numbness, bad sleep, stomach was off, except it happened in 48 hours, not 3 months. Except for the sleep it was all only about 10% of the intensity from the past but it was there.

I worked out, with some fear, but that pretty much took care of the back. Then TMS became like the character in the movie that runs out bullets, the throws the knife, throws the rock, the chair, the cat, anything to win. I admit I was mildly worried for a few hours but I knew deep down it was just TMS. And then I laughed when realized everything I experienced over several months was being through at me in a matter of two days!

My most important tools remain: being my own best cheerleader, writing to figure out what is making the small me livid, challenging my inner critic and using the tools from Feeling Good to combat it.

In a way Im glad I had this little anniversary party. I dont ever want to forget those tools and this reminded me to use them more often during times when TMS isnt present

 

Good post David! Congrats on the anniversary!

 

David, congratulations on a milestone! I think you give us all something to cheer about in pointing out how quickly you realized this was TMS. It's taken me over a year but when a new twinge or something appears, I immediately jump to TMS - not running through my internal laundry list of structural causes.

So BRAVO to you! And thanks for reminding us that even when we have set backs, there is still reason to celebrate a success!

 

When we need a new boost of TMS belief, Herbie's new views on Dr. Sarno's 12 Daily Reminders can help:


Herbie’s Extended Version of Dr. Sarno’s 12 DAILY REMINDERS

1. The pain is due to TMS. This is real pain or anxiety but its caused by subconscious tensions and triggers, stressors and traits to your reactions and fears and also when at boiling point your conscious tension can and does cause real pain too.
2. The main reason for the pain is mild oxygen deprivation. This means that when you get in pain or in anxiety then the the blood is restricted from going to your lower back for instance. The blood being restricted causes oxygen deprivation which causes the pain - remember, where theirs no oxygen then there is pain in the body. Also, The pain stays because of fear and focus to physical organic symptoms and repressions.
3. TMS is a harmless condition caused by my REPRESSED EMOTIONS so even though you think you can harm yourself from the years of pain you have felt and how you feel in general -- so far no reports have been heard from tms healing knowledge causing damage to anyone, it only helps.
4. The principle emotion is your repressed ANGER -- this means under your consciousness lies something that happens automatically to everyone. Tmsers have repressions that are stored because of our personality traits,traumas, stressors, fears, strain, etc... When these stored repressions build and build then eventually they cause the brain to send pain into your body to keep you from having an emotional crises. The mind-body thinks its helping you.
5. TMS exists to DISTRACT your attentions from the emotions, stressors, tensions and strains of your personality traits because if you can get distraction then you wont have to be in emotional turmoil. When you don't face and feel your emotions and they get repressed cause you didn't want to deal with something -- they are just adding up in this beaker, ready to pour over and create real pain and anxiety in your body.
6. Since my body is perfectly normal, there is nothing to fear. So in reality when I fear the pain or anxiety I just cause myself undo strain and tension adding to the beaker of pain. If I fear then I feed the pain, If I fear Its impossible to recondition. Fear keeps the pain and anxiety alive in the body through focus.
7. Therefore, physical activity is harmless.If I want to work against the pain I could but its better to lose some of the pain so when I start my life over I=t have to be in pain trying to heal cause facing the repressions and all the other activities that cause the pain and reversing my fear and focus to them then I can heal.
8. I am resuming all normal physical activity. I don't fear moving anymore. I believe in my bodies ability to heal now. I can move how I want. I will not fear moving with a bent back anymore. I will also practice going out and acting normal again, not in fear of what pain might do to me.
9. The pain is unimportant and powerless. Its only power is how its hidden -- its illusion, Its fear.
10. I will keep my attention on the emotional issues. I will think about my emotions and feel my emotions throughout the day. I will not judge, criticize or fear my emotions. I will not run from my emotional issues but face everyone of them. I will feel my emotions fully and cry if I need to. Then I will release the emotion and get my mind and thoughts back to my life and living in the present, in flow.
11. I am in control of all of this. This is how I recover.
12. I will be thinking PSYCHOLOGICALLY AT ALL TIMES. This means I will keep my thoughts on psychological issues like happiness, fear and anger -- traits and triggers, conditioning and journaling. The science behind mind-body/tms healing, etc.... This way I will not feed my thoughts to the body -- that is a trick of tms. Tms will always try to get me to focus on the body caused by the pain until I break its show and flair. When I get my attention off psychical symptoms and on emotional issues and psychological issues then I will not feed the fear of the physical issues anymore thus making the tms of no effect. This will in return, give us the cure.

 

Hello there! Any tips on how not to focus on the physical. Ever time I try I somehow go right back.