help!! chronic meningitis

I'm sorry, but I don't know what you are asking this forum to do for you. We are not medical professionals and we do not discuss any conditions which require antibiotics.

I'm afraid that I can not tell if this is a serious medical diagnosis which you have received. Have your medical examinations produced test results which indicate that you are dying? Have the medical doctors said that you are dying? Or is this a hyperbolic statement, designed (perhaps unconsciously) to create urgency?

I have to assume that you are not currently at risk of death or you would not be consulting Dr. Google and looking for alternative treatments on random forums - therefore I'm not going to take on your urgency.

Anyone can see that you are in a state of panic, which would explain the urgency and the desperate although obscure plea for help. I'm going to recommend very strongly that you consult Google one more time and look up "vagus nerve breathing for anxiety" before you do anything else. Then practice one of the techniques, and make a commitment to yourself to practice it often, especially any time you feel panic coming on. People who are dying practice techniques like this to help calm their fears.

I don't think you know what we do on this forum. That being said, it's possible that "chronic meningitis" is actually one of the many chronic mindbody-based conditions that are under the umbrella term of what we call "TMS". It's also possible (even likely) that it is one of the inflammation-based auto-immune conditions that are brought on by exposure to high levels of chronic stress, and which can be mitigated with mindbody awareness and techniques (my own stress-based RA is in remission with a low dose of a DMARD along with my mindbody practices).

You can educate yourself about TMS at www.tmswiki.org. And before you go there, here is something to know: every person with mindbody-based chronic symptoms has heard the following from medical professionals all their lives: "We can't find anything wrong" or "It appears that you might have XYZ wrong with you, but we don't have any treatment for it, you'll just have to live with it".

It's important for you (and anyone else who stumbles on this post via keyword search) to know that our website and forum are all about self-education, emotional self-examination, and mutual support as we change our physical experience by completely changing our minds.