How to practice somatici tracking with widespread pain

Hi guys i am in so much pain right now but i must try It all. I am going really crazy and suicidal. I am sure i have damaged my body with poor weight lifting and this guilty Sense really Kills me. I am a stupid i destroyed my body i am in pain all day. The most unsufferable part Is the neck but i have also back pain and pain in all joints, literally all joints, partially damaged with physical Activity. Not arthritis, little damage in every joint but now i am quite disabled. And that s bad people , knowing that you destroyed your body for Life at only 22. However i want to try Somatic tracking but It s difficult i have pain almost everywhere. Anyone has a suggestion?and also do you think joint pain Is psychological? Everybody told me so but only because nothing Is possible to solve the problem. I have really damaged my body and i Remember pain After training and i trained on that so many times and now It s chronic. Sorry for the rant and for the form i am desperate, italian and i have difficulty concentrating.

 

Dear Ihatethepain,

The working theory and practice of this site is that No, you didn't ruin your body with x, y, or z activity.

Still, there is pain. That is real.

do you think joint pain Is psychological? Everybody told me so but only because nothing Is possible to solve the problem.

It is fortunate that in Italy you're getting this view. This is supportive for the TMS approach. Your pain is likely not based on tissue damage, if it has become chronic.

I am sorry for your pain, and also for your self-hate, that you did this to yourself. And maybe there is also self-hate that it is psychological. This is true for others too. We tend to blame ourselves for any suffering we have. Why? Because as children it was safer to learn to blame ourselves than our all-powerful parents.

It is important to see your self-rejection in your experience of wanting to end it all. Hating yourself can be witnessed, and disengaged from, and with a little space with this experience, you're left with the just pain to work with, but that is easier than the pain combined with the self-hate.

So my first hope for you is to dismiss these thoughts that you did something terrible to yourself and that you are to blame. Everyone does all kinds of things all our lives. And we have experiences. Some are beautiful, some are painful. So be it.

As far as somatic tracking when you're in a lot of pain, this is not recommended. Try just learning to bring your attention to parts of you which are not in pain. Then you learn the technique in a safe way. This is still helpful because you're learning to witness. And you're learning to stay in contact with you, and with your body sensations.

My hope is that you learn mindfulness. This is through a daily practice, about 20 minutes of following your breath, or other means. This begins to give you space inside. Space from your thoughts, and space from your sensations.

If you feel suicidal, this forum is not going to do much for you. You need to find counseling, psychotherapy. Use this along with our free program the Structured Education Program at the Wiki. You're young and you probably have a beautiful life ahead of you!! Stay in life, and keep learning and loving.

Ask questions. Read success stories at this Forum, every day. Most stories will not be exactly "you," but look at the miracles of healing and know that you're ready for this. Read Dr. Sarno's work.

Welcome to this Forum and keep us posted. There is a huge amount of hope for your situation, believe me. I used a wheelchair and crutches for years, and got better.

Andy

 

I know that desperate feeling. First see doctor to check for structural issue. If it is weight lifting injury at your age I would think about anything can be fixed. I think about any pain could be TMS especially if you fit the profile in Dr Sarno's books. Good luck and hang in there.