I think too much therefore I’m not

I’ve been called a thinking woman and generally considered it a compliment. For a while now, I have realized that other than my innate curiosity, which I value, my busy mind needs a reprieve so that my heart can catch up. And when my heart gets too heavy, I focus on others on this forum.

I’ve quite a collection of books relating to mindbody all reinforcing my quest. To choose one over the other or name an article or video that helped the most as Day 13 asks, would be hard. Taken together, all of them helped me. I really needed an army of resources to get this far! So upon reflection, the SEP content in its entirety is welcomed regardless of where one might be in their journey.

Since I’m here and the above Day 13 question is answered, I want to say how grateful I am to those who have entered my space to comfort, commiserate and also teach me from their personal pain. This includes the selfless time of the moderators who have heard it all before but still care enough to be supportive.

In time, more of my story will unfold (even to me) and more of my pain will shrink as I let go of the past and let the present just be. I cannot envision my fist clenched in death, holding onto anger, fear, sadness and disappointment. But I can envision my remaining years relatively pain-free because at this point I know that my mind is just a wind-up toy that will come to rest.