If TMS disappears, will part of me as well?

I am starting the SEP tomorrow, after re-listening and re-reading Alan Gordon's page, which is profoundly helpful. I've tried starting the SEP a few times, and have a hard time picturing life without TMS. The first question, "What would a life without TMS mean to you?" brings some interesting answers. On the surface, of course, it is a simple answer. It would be wonderful. But also, I hear a voice that feels like if I lose my TMS, I will be losing something vital to myself. A voice of some kind. A cry for help. If TMS disappears, will I?

 

I have not lost my tms. I am losing interest in my tms.

 

Love your quote jaumeb!! Love it!

 

Donavanf you are very thoughtful and reflective. This is likely a strength for you in life.

Sometimes my brain does things like that ... I get caught up in my deep thoughts. In my experience, it makes me feel like I enter a maze that keeps me from finding what I need or resolving what I was hoping to resolve. I used to entertain those thoughts, and don't any more. Personally (and I could be way off here, but I'm giving it a shot in case it helps you), my gut tells me that this could be your brain throwing you a speed bump, keeping you from furthering your recovery. I used to suffer from depression and although it was horrible, there was a part in my brain that was seduced by the idea that it was "part of me" or "mine" and ending it was ending part of my personality. I tell you, now that I'm far away from those days of depression, I think, boy oh boy my brain sure likes to play games! It's like a seductive siren leading us in the wrong direction, telling us that if we fix this issue we might just lose parts of ourselves. I say laugh at that idea. If it were a cat, I would spray it with a water bottle! If I could spray my brain with a water bottle to startle it out of tempting thoughts that keep me from happiness or being pain free, I would! I really hope this helps.