Day 36 Journaling/Question to Ponder

Is there anything in your life you feel like you can’t control? How does not being in control make you feel? Can you connect this feeling to a personality trait?

Well, I have been lonely since breaking up with my girlfriend a year ago. I'm in grad school right now but there's nobody I like and nobody who likes me romantically. Not sure what to do, I've tried dating apps but it just feels too weird, I like meeting people in real life. This does hurt my self-esteem for sure.

Other than that I can't think of much. I mean I'm having trouble controlling my back pain right now hehe. But hopefully that can be controlled. I am avoiding weightlifting so you could say I am having trouble controlling my fitness/health. This is also an avenue I want to pursue to improve my self-esteem.