Journaling Technique: What is your TMS telling you?

Hello all,

I wanted to share again a technique that has been quite helpful to many people I've worked with in the TMS community and hope that it's an added weapon in your arsenal to not just combat TMS but understand it as well. My hope is that this technique can become a staple of the growing interventions people use to address their TMS.

The exercise that I wanted to share with you today simply asks: What is my TMS trying to tell me? Many of you are already familiar with a number of journaling techniques in relation to the work of Sarno, Gordon, Schubiner and Schecter. This technique is one more journaling exercise that can expand awareness.

1) Sit down to journal and imagine your TMS in your mind's eye. You can close your eyes to do this but some of us prefer to keep our eyes open. When you imagine your TMS, allow your mind to explore freely and see if it takes a form beyond the pain, the symptom itself. Is it anthropomorphic? Does it take the shape of a person in your life or an animal, a place, an entity? Allow your imagination to run wild. One client of mine imagined it as a bear that was crushing her body with it's paws. She had a significant amount of Neuropathy all over her body.

2) Write out a description of the TMS at the top of your paper. Try to describe what it looks like, sounds like, feels like here.

3) Start a dialogue on paper with the TMS. What does it say to you? What do you say in return to it? What does it want? What does it need? How does it feel about you? How do you feel about it? Whenever you feel lost in this conversation, close your eyes again and review the description at the top of your paper.

This exercise is a unique opportunity to explore the underlying characteristics that feed your TMS. People often find insight into deep patterns of self-loathing, fear, lack of self-care, and discover direction towards taking action in life. This last piece - discovering direction - can be important as sometimes there are nagging issues that need to be addressed in some way (not necessarily eliminated) to affect change in TMS symptoms.

If you're open to it, I encourage anyone to try this and I would love to get feedback on how the experience is for you.

If at any point the exercise becomes too activating, please stop and contact your doctor or mental health professional.

Best of luck in your healing journey,

Andrew

 

Thank you for that, Andrew! I think it's good to have different methods to approach our writing and journaling. It expands our tool kit and increases the odds of getting better. It also helps keep the writing from getting stagnant.

The journey never ends.

 

I use a similar method based on Brian Broom's book, "Meaning-full disease". He talks about symptoms as metaphors for what is going on in our lives. One of my clients was getting facial eczema and she was able to understand that her condition was "showing her face" to people in her church who were making things difficult for her on committees. Her eczema cleared.

 

I just did this. I only needed like 15 seconds of sitting and moving my back in the angle that makes it hurt and an image of a Rhesus monkey biting down on my back in the spot that hurts all the time. His big open jaws were clamping down on that sore spot on my spine and I came up with the idea that I have a "monkey on my back". So I asked the monkey "why are you here?". It said "I'm biting you to let you know that you beat yourself up way too much and also that you have to stop doubting yourself about leaving the job that you will be leaving at the end of the month". "It's time to go. 19 years is enough. You must trust yourself and find a new career." So maybe the job is the monkey. I cannot be sure. It's just a stab in the dark.

 

Sounds powerful, @Marytabby . I'll be curious to see how you feel at the end of the month. Good luck on the transition!

 

I know this is old but I just did this journaling exercise yesterday and actually found it extremely insightful.

My "image" was a Jack-In-The-Box. Maybe a little on the nose, but, hey, that's what came to mind.

A child's toy, a scare tactic. It scares me when it pops out, and I spend my time worrying about the next scare. I'm not afraid of IT, I'm afraid of the feeling the way it makes me feel. This helped to me to recognize it is not the pain itself I fear, but the emotions they trigger.

There were other insights, but I wanted to share that I found this to be a fresh take on journaling and gaining insight specifically into TMS and what meaning I give to it.

 

Glad to here, ARCU! Good luck on your journey.

 

this was so interesting for me. I just happened apon this post while searching for more journaling information and literally as soon as I read it my thought was that I feel the pain of my chronic headaches as a Giant who is literally crushing my skull by stepping on it. and I just know intuitively that it's a metaphor I feel as a caregiver to a spouse who has a chronic illness (physical, not TMS), who due to his illness is extremely hard to deal with and I feel is actually 'crushing' my life. That realization both stuns and terrifies me. While he and his illness has definitely both been a source of my stress and come up basically every time I journal, I don't think I saw this as dramatically as I do now. But I don't know what to do with that information-- it actually scares me.

 

Thank you Jan. I really am ok, though I will admit that my stomach is turning almost constantly. I know this about being a caregiver, and like I said, so much of my journaling has been centered around my resentment and worry over my husbands ups and downs. it is hard bc it makes me feel so split- like inside I am roiling and seething and on the outside I am still trying to be compassionate and patient. Bboth are my truths. But it is difficult to live authentically from two opposite places.

 

This is the bottom line, for sure. Look for what tears you up, the unacceptable feelings.