Day 25 Keeping on keeping on

" . . . take a short minute and write a forum post on how you are doing so far, and what apprehensions you may have about this treatment or your life in general."

I'm now in the second half of the SEP. It's good to read the articles, and I'm still rereading Sarno. I've found the journaling especially helpful, as it's opened up lots of past (and previously unknown) emotion for me. It's amazing how much stuff is "down there" once I start writing about it. My back pain is probably about the same as it was initially, but I've come to accept that, and just let it be. My focus is on doing the emotional work. I've been doing lots of walking and a tiny bit of running, and that has increased my confidence and, frankly, joy!

I have a copy of The Presence Process, and am eager to start reading it when time allows. Although I'm retired, I find dozens of everyday activities to use up my time -- ironic, I know, that all my "doing" keeps me from reading a book about "being."

My wife and I are embarking later this week on a week-long driving vacation, and I probably will take a break from the SEP during that time, since we will be highly involved with family during our limited time with them. I don't expect this visit to be especially stressful, but then again, it's family, so who knows?! I intend to resume the SEP immediately upon returning home.

After our trip I'm also thinking about making an appointment with a TMS doctor who's about a three-hour drive from my home -- the closest one I've found. Although I believe I have TMS, I think my subconscious might respond more completely if it heard a diagnosis from an MD, especially since my regular doc has prescribed several drugs (which I've discontinued) and recommended that I talk to a surgeon about my back (which I haven't done). He's not the sort who'd be open to discussing TMS.

So basically I'm just following the process, appreciating the insights I've received, and expecting the best. I appreciate everyone's support and just the existence of this remarkable community. Thanks to all.

Mike

 

Hi, Mike. I think you're doing great. The SEprogram sure is helping you. I'm glad you have some plans for you and your wife to visit relatives and that you don't think that will be stressful. Think positive and enjoy the visits. When you get back, it could be a good idea to get a check-up about any back pain so you know if there is anything structurally wrong. Most likely it is TMS, from some repressed emotions or having a perfectionist and "goodist" personality, trying to be too nice to everyone all the time. It sounds like you're being active and positive, two of the main ways to heal.

 

Hi Mike,
I love that you are getting so much out of this program. Your writing tells me that you are expanding your life lately, and that can only be positive! Good luck on the continued journey.
Andy B