Day 10 Making slow progress...I think!

Day 10 has been really useful for me. I have identified when my TMS symptoms started and I'm pretty sure why. I don't really want to go into it on here, but I think it was all to do with an ex-partner of mine.

It's difficult to say if my pains are getting better. I feel like I can cope with them better, and I'm not so anxious about them. I try to tell myself this is just TMS pain, worrying is going to make it worse.

After I did some journaling I got very angry. I think it's the repressed anger coming out. I did some exercise after and felt better though. I was meant to write an unsent letter, but I just wrote out some things which angered me in the past.

I can't help it but I still have a few doubts about TMS. I think my brain just wants a quick fix, but I've had TMS pain for years, so I don't think it's that easy.

 

I appreciate your post. I too have had many moments in the journaling experience where I have had a lot of emotion percolate up. I believe it had to be good an I am trusting the process. As nice as it would be to have a miracle cure, mine appears to be a slower journey, so far. Keep up the work and thanks for posting.

 

Dear Skeleton Bob, I agree with your statement that your brain wants a quick fix and it's not going to be easy. I have a question for you. If you can't help it who will? Please be patient with yourself. I read your post only because you're on day 10 just like me. The difference is I started this program more than a month ago. I work on this everyday but can only process so much at a time. It's not easy. I've really suffered for many years and was desperate enough to die. I'm so grateful to have the experience of others to know I can be cured. Let's celebrate that and know it's happening for us right now. I din't know there could be a finish line. Now I know I don't care how long it takes to get there.