Day 38 New insights and new relationships

Today was a discovery day for me. I realised part of the reason why I get angry at people, especially friends when they disappoint me with not on purpose behaviour. It connects me to my mum and all the times she left me waiting, or treated me as a non-important person. It brings up the fear I will be treated like that again and my soul rediscovers those feelings. By reading the question to ponder in today's SEP activity I noticed that I became more willing to connect with people and have made a few friends since I started SEP, which is different from the previous six months when I isolated myself, closing to door to people I knew I didn't like but also people that I didn't know and never gave them the chance. My inner child likes to socialise a lot and she was unhappy alone. Obviously a balance of personal space and socialising is crucial. I don't want to overwhelm myself.

 

You're doing the right thing... spending time with those people you like, and not those you don't like, but not "closing the door" on others. Years ago I made the decision to stop accepting invitations from what I called "peripheral people."
A good balance of private time and socializing is so important, and you're working on that.