Day 1 Ok here it goes.

Day 1.... here's my story
I am a 43 year old nurse who worked cardiac her whole career until last summer. Last summer I took a new position in "pain management " and helping dr in the "spine center " where I work. I never was scared of cardiac the whole 15 yrs I worked it but immediately I became scared of spinal issues and chronic pain after working with these patients. I still was myself, never sick or hurt Day in my life.
October of 2016, I went on vacation w a close friend who was in a wheelchair while suffering from chronic back pain. Scared the heck of me but still did not think much of it.
NOvemeber of 2016, went on a crazy workout spree and developed some left sided back pain. I ignored it, rested it , it went away. DEcemebwr of 2016, started to get numbness on/ off in left foot. Jan of 2017 (happy new year ) , I went walking four miles ( normal activity for me ), developed back pain that worsened since then.
Underwent PT, MRI ( showed left sided sludgy bulging disc), Steriod shot ; response lasted 48 Hrs max, placed on Meds (since then has weaned myself off of most).
Read sarno book in march but did not think of myself as "chronic " at thAt time. Since then pain continues, I now feel it is probably TMS due to fear of becoming one of my patients.
I am going to overcome this! I have confident in myself! I can do this ! I have to be more persistent than the pain. This is my first post. I have not started journaling yet,due to not really sure how to start.
Wish me luck!!!

 

Hi and welcome to this community of TMS healing. I think you have already figured out why you have some back pain. You have worked all your life around people with pain. Now you fear you will become one of them. You probably need to work, and I'm sure you like your work because it helps people who are in pain. I am a former newspaper reporter and saw a lot of terrible things that happened to people. A professor in journalism school gave some good advice. He said as reporters we should "assume an attitude of detached studiousness." Maybe you should apply that to your work as a nurse.

 

Hi lettherebehope,

Welcome to the forums! I definitely understand your situation, as a PT seeing people with debilitating back issues can be so scary! It has been truly liberating to find Dr. Sarno, TMS and the other TMS practitioners out there with this viewpoint. I feel so much more confident in my understanding of the body and the way the mind and emotions can so directly affect it, this has completely changed my practice. It's great to hear from other healthcare professionals who have found this approach. Best of luck beginning your journey!