Day 2 on the road

Has been about 1 or 2 weeks since committing myself to TMS (quiting physio exercises....trying to self massage as little as possible).
A friend wanted me to go with her to Yoga late last week. When i found out it was a 1 hour lesson I freaked out a bit. Anyway thought I'd just try and go with the flow. It was hard work but i tried to take it easy. It didn't really make my pain worse (perhaps a bit worse) but it definitely didn't improve things & I wasn't expecting it to. I had a little shoulder and moderate butt pain before and afterwards.
Haven't had much of a reduction in pain but I did notice something pretty cool. When going to the beach on the train and reading "Healing Back Pain" i felt the constant right-side sciatica disappear and relocate in a mirror image to the left side. I don't remember that happening before so it got me thinking.
When I got to the beach I was feeling my shoulder pain and feeling a bit sorry for myself. Though I ignored it and went body surfing. It felt really fun. The pain didn't really get worse.
My sciatica has been pretty bad at work this afternoon. I resisted the pain killers though.

 

Escapee:

Good to hear you did all that physical activity. I am going to simply walk today. This is week #2 for me. Just starting it. I have found that today I have less glute pain, and like you said the pain keeps moving around. Also my unconsious is throwing me curve balls with acid refulx, which I haven't had in years and headaches. I won't let this keep me from doing the work.

I wrote down the reasons I have TMS on sticky on my desk.
1. Inferiority
2. Perfectionist
3. People Pleaser
4. Do-Gooder

This list is longer, but it's a reminder of why I have TMS. I also have a lot of childhood issues to work through which are painful.

p.s. I have but pain too. Seems to be my worst pain at times. I wonder what the unconsious is telling me. Don't kiss people's butts, stop being a people pleaser. Enjoy life!

Here's to healing,
Susan

 

Hi Explorer,

Thanks for your message and sharing your progress. That's a good idea thinking about your reasons. I reckon my top 3 would be:
1. Worrier
2. Inferiority
3. People Pleaser

Yeah i am also getting wise to stopping being so much of a Mr Nice Guy. It will make life easier in other ways too.
I hope you're still making progress. Hang in there, throw caution to the wind and give it a good shot. I know I will.

 

Thanks Escapee - you can heal! I am feeling better every day and it's only the middle of week 2. I have a lot of work to do with my therapist. I have been journaling for the structured program and then more at night. It's hard to let go of the fear pain cycle but it gets easier.

I try every day to ask myself what do I need to heal today? Worrying, feeling inferior, pleasing people rarely answer the question.

Healing is a journing..... I am learning so much about myself.

 

Forest

You are so right. My pain is moving around a good bit. I enjoyed walking today and felt very clear headed and happy. I used to worry about the pain the next day but I did not do that today. I also decided not to put a time frame on healing and like Steve said let it happen when it happens.