school and TMS

I'm in an accelerated nursing program - and shocker! - during my holiday break i got wallopped with a nasty bout of TMS. It had been an incredibly difficult 8 months both mentally, physically and emotionally. I'm an older student (40) with small children and a history of (successfully treated) TMS, and I'm all of the above, perfectionist, goodist, driven, people pleaser and DEEPLY AVOIDENT.
I spent most of my much needed holiday break doing work for my TMS - reading, thinking - everything i can do to accept all the crap i've been feeling and release it from my body.
It is still here and i HATE IT.
Today i have to start back up again with my very demanding program. I am really anxious and dreading tackling this semester with major TMS pain.
UGH why can't my body let go of this.
I know my subconscious is an ugly place full of anxiety fear rage and i'm ready to release.
thank you for listening. this community is a lifesaver for me.