Day 1 Seed of hope

I finished the Alan Gordon pages yesterday after googling TMS via The Pain Cure clinic.
I believe in TMS but hadn’t heard it named in this way. I believe in this theory and last week I ‘re-diagnosed’ myself ’. I told my new psychologist and she showed scepticism and I think I have to refrain from telling people like I usually do because I need all my strength to stay in my own belief and I don’t want anymore advice from anyone who doesn’t have my experiences.
This is not new information to me, I guess I’m just ready to take it a step further and implement the strategies in a different way now that I’m both at a low point physically and mentally and because it’s becoming clear I am alone and exhausted after everything I gave to everyone else and ‘they’ aren’t going to change or ‘get it’ and life isn’t going to be ‘problem free’ so it’s up to me to live better now and fast or face a dismal and lonely future. I’m feeling constant discomfort and pain and huge anxiety and fear (for my son) and dread and have done for over 40 years and now I don’t want to be alive so I’m resting my seed of hope for a chance of peace here.

 

Hi @La Boheme
I don't know if you are french like me, but I also had a strange reaction of my psychiatrist... and then I stopped to see her to go deeply in the TMS work by my own. It is more intense and way more efficient. Maybe the therapist was good for me at the very begin, but for now, after years, there is no improvment. If you feel you can cope alone, maybe it's not a problem. But if you feel it's too hard, you will need someone else to help you very fast!
I feel a lot of anxiety in your message. I also share same feelings, and something helps me a lot in parallel : this article of Dr Weekes : https://www.tmswiki.org/ppd/Overcome_Anxiety_with_Dr._Claire_Weekes (Overcome Anxiety with Dr. Claire Weekes)