Day 34 Silly/frustrating things

The prompt today in the SEP was about what I find frustrating or silly about PPD and how my personality contributes to these feelings.

Well, I am a skeptic by nature. Always questioning. Always deeply curious. Strangely pretty open to new ideas, but only if someone is willing to present copius amounts of evidence, because I am pretty intolerant of uncertainty (very popular in Sunday school lol). I can be swept up in a doom spiral pretty quickly too.

So, I feel like all of these contradictory personality traits stalled my progress for a time, but the good thing about this program is that it is backed up by copious amounts of evidence, and Alan Gordon in particular talks about how one won't believe until it starts working.

He gave me the space to be skeptical, because being told to "just believe" my whole life was like telling me to become a mountain or fly myself to the moon. It just wasn't in my nature.

I have been told over and over again by people in positions of authority that they definitely have ALL THE ANSWERS, and then when their answers failed to produce results, they were never willing to just say "I don't know."

I guess what I am most frustrated by is that I feel like I can't really talk to people about TMS without them thinking I'm saying that THEIR pain isn't real. I know it's real!

Anyway, thank you for reading and I am so grateful to this forum for giving me a space where I can talk abaout it!

 

Bothead!
I could read your writing all day long! I love how you describe things and I actually love your personality! You are an absolute joy. ❤️

 

The fact that you’re on this forum precludes anyone from accusing you of thinking their pain isn’t real. Your responses to others are certainly supportive.

You sound a lot like my curious, inquiring son, who questioned and challenged everything growing up. It often landed him in trouble. As an adult, however, those very attributes have helped make him a success albeit he now presents his questioning with more finesse!

It may be, that being told to shut up and get in line has fostered an even greater tendency to challenge what you see and hear. Just be who you are is my advice. Your inquiring mind can serve you well.