Day 10 Stuck and resistant trying to change beliefs

Hi
I have been working through the program very slowly - I find it very hard to dive into each day of it and feel any painful emotions. I am still constantly going back to trying to think about a new structural reasons for my pains, even though much of me can see they are almost certainly TMS related rather than anything else now. I think I’m clinging on to old beliefs about how the symptoms are created by injury, and afraid to fully embrace the TMS reasons for them (even though I’m aware of how strong emotions and stressful events make them flare up or make them worse). How can I fully embrace the TMS work? Any suggestions appreciated.

 

For what it's worth, I'm new to TMS too and my mind still is constantly checking symptoms since I've done that all my life. But now when I do I change the narrative in my head. Every time I notice my symptoms, I say in my head something like, "nope. not going there. rage rage rage" or "forget about it - doesn't matter -- will figure out the emotions later."..... something, to distract me.
And then when I journal I ask myself why, I talk to myself, I let my inner voice(s) speak out, scream or whine or whatever (on paper).
I'm not actually doing "the program" so I don't have a lot of insight for you there.
My simplified version is working really well for me so far.
But I hear you. The symptoms come on and you're like, "sh#%! Something IS wrong."

PS. I wonder if you are having a hard time diving into deep/hidden emotions because there IS some hurt there. Maybe your unconscious is holding it tucked away and saying, "nope, nothing to see here...but did you feel that pain ...."

 

I think I’m clinging on to old beliefs about how the symptoms are created by injury, and afraid to fully embrace the TMS reasons for them (even though I’m aware of how strong emotions and stressful events make them flare up or make them worse). How can I fully embrace the TMS work? Any suggestions appreciated.[/QUOTE]


I am fully aware there’s hurts tied up with the emotions - but I don’t know how to switch my mind off from constantly jumping back to thinking of physical reasons for the discomforts in my body. I guess it’s partly practice and perseverance.

 

At the end of 'mindbody prescription' Sarno has the Jim Campobello story? I thought it instructive that his Homemade recovery program was the same thing I made by myself...and one important part is to keep reading the text, every day.

All of us came here conditioned, overdiagnosed and over informed... the only way to delete those old files is to 'advertise in your own head' and the best way to do that is TRUTH. Don't be afraid to stay open minded..."Which one of these narratives better explains my dilemma?"

There is also a lot of Sarno debunking the logic behind the conventional diagnoses. Reading that made me go "Oh, yeah.. THEIR story doesn't make any sense... the Sarno one does"... each one of us had different experience that got us here and we all process it a little different but one thing that is a common bond among the people who are 'cured' is understanding what we have and what we don't...and reading the text is the best way to get to that point. You don't have to make yourself BELIEVE anything... the truth will become self evident.

peace