Day 1 The beginning of my journey

Hello everyone, i’m just starting the educational program. I’ve been diagnosed with fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue and currenlt on cymbalta after 3 years of running around… i tried everything (physiotherapy 150+ sessions, chiropractic sessions, bowen therapy, pilates, yoga, visited a rheumatologist and an osteopath, did all the xrays, ct scans and mri.. took care not to lift anything heavy, no to sit for long hours, not to hold my phone a lot etc…) i left my job… i stubmled across curable app by chance, which led me to dr sarno, then to alan gordon then to this website… i read dr sarno’s book and i am 100% sure i have TMS… i am convinced with this diagnosis… i started doing the somatic tracking and positive sensations after listening to alan and alon posdcats… i was starting to get better then i cut my finger pretty bad using a mandolin… lots of blood, pain, 2 days visiting the ER… me feeling so bad for everyone there as well… broke my heart that so many people were in pain… i felt fear, anxiety and pain… i feel uncomfortable with blood… i feel like i went back to square 0… pain is back everyday, so bad and i don’t like journaling… i am angry, sooo angry… i just want my life back somatic tracking and positive sensations aren’t working like they used to… i can’t shake the fear and anger feelings and of course anxiety… i hope i will do better as i proceed with the pain recovery and educational programs… wish me luck and i wish you all 100% recovery and to live a pain free life…