Day 42 THE END? NOOOO!!!

Day 41 Self Care Day

Doing something that you enjoy and that relaxes you.

This is what relaxes me, the writing.
I become very calm and relaxed when I am writing.
I love to feel my feelings and emotions. That's my life.

When I was 3 I blocked my emotions and feelings and I became like a zombie.
At 40 I started emotional bodywork and I broke down the fort I had build around me.
I am not afraid of any emotion, I love to feel.


Day 42 The End

What have I learned about myself during this program?

That my focus was totaly wrong.
My focus was 100% at my pain, that's why the pain became worse.
When my focus is on the pain, I feel myself as a victim, a victim of the pain.
Then I play the role of the cripple, while there is nothing wrong with me.

I found the connection between body and mind.
At 40 I started bodywork that reduced the pain often.
But I always was poking into the pain.
At 50 I did mindwork, it was the other way around.
It worked also but I was searching for the combination of the two.

I have pain for 45 years now, I have done a lot, the pain didn't go away.

Then I found TMS WIKI............WOW

This is the last day of this program.
I continue because I relax during writing which reduce my pain. (it is still there)
But I also continue because I'm not sure where my pain is coming from.
I still don't know what the real connection is between my personality and the pain.
I'm going to figure this out at ease. I am going to write a lot, in many different ways.
I think after this I do Alan Gordon's TMS Recovery Program.
First I take a week off.
I have to work a lot this week (it is carnival) and next weekend I have a course.
It's a course called; The Journey of the Soul.

I thank you all for your support, posts and replies, advices, insights.
The last days I feel wonderful, I don't know the cause, but who cares.
Wish you all the best.

With love, Rozie.

 

Rozie, that is the best SEP sign-off I have read so far. You are a joy to read and I hope you continue to post here (on the main forums) because selfishly I would be sad to see you go and I would miss your words.

Enjoy both the carnival and the course and remember you are loved and have friends here.

Onward and upward my darling

 

Hi again, Rozie. Congratulations on completing the SEProgram. I'm so glad you feel better now. Yes, take a week or more off before starting Gordon's Recovery Program. Enjoy the carnival.

I've enjoyed reading your posts and progress. Feel free to write to us anytime.

 

Well done @RozieHolland - best wishes!