@tgirl, sometimes the people who seem the strongest ask for the most reassurance, because they’re putting on the facade all day and need that support. I had to ask myself WHY I felt so unstable, and as Plum pointed out, unsafe. Safety is a huge topic on this forum and I’m glad it’s popped back up. I hated the alcoholism of many adults around me growing up, I resented my siblings for having certain issues that dragged my parents down, I resented my mother for her nervous breakdown, I felt like a freak for not being straight or completely gay, I couldn’t stand disparity in my city and how quickly people seemed to lose everything, I despised how my parents and pediatrician just said I’d “grow out of it” when I asked for help with anxiety and depression, nobody taught me how to appropriately handle intense feelings and emotions, I was told to smile and never bother anybody, etc. Nothing felt safe, everything was stressful - I see now why I had mood swings and suicidal ideations. You need enjoyment in life! Once you learn how to help support yourself (a goal anyone should have in therapy), life truly changes for the better.