Day 4 What has been discouraging from doctors

The most discouraging thing that I was told was that my abdomen and back pain were due to gallbladder disease and that I would have to have my gallbladder removed. This was discouraging because it has turned out to be a mistake and it has put me in a place of distrust. The doctor that gave me this diagnosis never did a physical exam on me, and was unwilling to send me to a specialist, though he was perfectly willing to let me undergo surgery that I didn't need.

I spent six plus months trying to figure out what was wrong with me, going through a number of tests and exams. A few weeks ago I was at my wit's end with it all, thinking that I was never going to get better and that there was no one who could help me figure out what was happening. I had to make a decision on whether I was going to go ahead with surgery or keep looking for answers. I chose the later, got a new doctor who disagreed with the diagnosis. At this point, everything serious has been ruled out.

I had a very cathartic experience on the evening of Day 2, where after talking out some anger I had that was present-tense based, I realized that I was really angry about some stuff in the past, and thanks to a loving and supportive spouse, I felt safe to express that vocally and really go into it, exploring that anger as regret. I broke down and cried for over an hour. Something I haven't done in years. My symptoms seem to worsen a little the next day until we talked about the feelings again, and the pain and tension released.

 

George it really is very scary when they say that word surgery. I've never had surgery in my life and when the chiro said it might be an option my body responded with more pain. I'm glad you have some one to speak with I think that helps a lot.

 

Thanks Lauri. I went to see a couple chiropractors a few months ago, but I didn't have much luck with the treatments. In fact, I seemed to get much worse after leaving the chiropractor's office. I'm sure they're helpful for some people, but chiropractic care wasn't for me. I saw two chiropractors over two months. They could never answer my questions to my satisfaction. I would ask what was causing the pain, they would say that my back was out of alignment, and I would ask how that would cause pain, and there wasn't really an answer. I don't think that chiropractic care is really about fixing any structural problems or healing any pathology directly. It's more about healing through presentation-- the presentation of confidence, dramatic body motions, focused intent. And I think that's valid. Just my two cents though.

 

I had three appointments and they made no difference. I'm going for the MRI on Monday and I'll take it back to the chiro to see but I doubt I'll continue the treatments. The man is quite close minded about TMS so that is not helpful.