Day 17 What I have found the most helpful

I have enjoyed the journaling a lot. It is allowing me to explore my emotions and thoughts in much more depth. I have always been "in my head" but I think there was a lack of in depth exploring that stifled progress. It is so interesting that it took so long, in my life, but also in this program dedicated to identifying repressed emotions, that I have started to acknowledge my repressed anger! I always knew about my guilt, but I often joked about it, or failed to give it the importance that it has had in my life. I lump guilt and shame together as well.
Up until today, I have been focusing on attending to myself when pain is starting, but I am realizing that it is about attending to myself all the time, when there is no pain, in order to prevent pain from starting. I am a slow learner, but I grateful for this program, and the people in this forum that have been helping along the way! Thanks.

 

You are so right about this!

 

...and the opposite, most times I have had a minor relapse? I feel like I 'Fell asleep'...that is, stopped being mindful of who I am and accidentally thought I could ignore certain things, or Participate in certain anger provoking things, with impunity. (Politics comes to mind)
The 'real' me is the one who healed from TMS... the 'Fake' me has all sorts of Walter Mitty type of fantasies and delusions.

The 'Fake' me gets TMS...the real me feels things, but not physical pain

 

They say authenticity is the cure. So you’re proof!