When nothing works...

Hi everyone. I had another account on here but just opened up a new one because I didn’t have my login info.

I’ve been on the forum since 2013. I can’t believe I’ve been in pain this long. There have been good times, but I have to take it easy. When I try to push through the pain it only gets worse and lasts longer. I’m afraid I will go crazy from the agony to be honest with you.

Last night was a blur of agony. I went on a day trip to DC a couple days ago and pushed through the pain so I could enjoy myself. I relaxed the next day on pain relievers and yesterday just went to my parents for dinner. I couldn’t believe how bad my back was bothering me. I thought I’d feel better when I got home. Instead when I lied down it got worse. And then the more focused on it the worse I got. I then figured I would do whatever I could to dull it.

These things worked enough so that the pain was manageable. Then I took a sedative to go to sleep. I didn’t know when I was with my parents that that was how my night was going to be.

My fiancée has chronic back pain too and she was with me on DC. So we are both miserable. We are doing the best we can to take care of each other but it is very hard. It seems like the whole world is against us.