New Program Day 20: Embracing Joy

Reread this post and a few things clicked. I have trouble sleeping. Even though I'm tired, my mind will wake me up to worry about things that aren't perfect (i.e. the way I'd prefer them to be). The perfectionism that is so common amongst TMSers can generate so much of the energy that fuels the pain, like Alan said. Pressure, urgency, and expectations... all self-imposed anguish. And why? Truly, so little of it matters in the long run. I think learning to let go of things needing to be perfect before I can be happy, and then pain free, is key to a better life. Knowing and doing it are two different things, but at least I'm aware of the first part.