Fear

Hi,

As you might know, I'm battling a strange feeling on my throat that seems like I have something stuck on my throat for three months. Still didn't figure it out what it is, although I have hashimoto, and many people complains about the same.

I've through a lot of stress due to this and fear. Unfortunately I'm having full body pain again. I feel my body burning. I cannot relax, nor sleep. Even with pills. I don't wanna daycare you guys, but that's what happens when you are stupid, and let anxiety take over. Everyone warned me here, but I think that chronic pain was a think of the past.

I always had this deep fear inside me. I can feel it releasing stress hormones on my body nonstop.

It was always like this with me. There were times when I could even slept with the lights off.

When I was ok from my pain, I start doing stuff to overcome fear as deeper level. I try affirmations, but besides being good, I remember being worse, and worse. I try John Murphy books, John keohoe, Joe s dispenza, everything, but the more I try the more the fear takes over me. I have to give up, because I was almost having a relapse. The more I think or talk about fear, the fear I get.

So, I ask, how do you overcome this beast? Is it even possible? Why do some people accomplished to do it, and have succes with affirmations. I'm not talking about conscious fear. I cannot help anyone in a stressful situation or I will worst than that person.

Now evertime I try to sleep, and I reach my subconscious, level, I feel the fear. I feel it releasing cortisol. It is there like a scared animal.

I am a fearful person since I was a boy.

Unfortunately I couldn't never manage to increased my fear nor stress thresholds. I break easily with pressure.

Today I even broke up with my girlfriend due to pressure. Unfortunately my body is always letting me down.

When the body says no, says Dr mate. I feel my body is always saying no to me. Always failing me.

Last year I was super depressed because I didn't have a girlfriend. This year I had a girlfriend, but I couldn't handle the pressure.

When my mother was pregnant of me, she had a traumatizing stressfull experience, a kind of kidnap, by some People. For three months. Could this be the link?

Thanks