five minutes of reprieve and that is all

I'm up to day 23 of the TMS program & my lower back pain has been intensifying & so too has my negative thoughts, it's like a cycle that I can't break. However!..... I was journalling the other day and had a bit of a cry afterwards, then I experienced my ever-present back pain vanish!!! It was so beautiful, i'd forgotten what pain-free felt like. Unfortunately it was short-lived, and a few minutes later it returned with a vengeance. I was so frustrated & dejected. I'm desperately trying to figure it out. I want that beautiful pain-free feeling back so badly!

 

Good! Something good happened! Maybe you could give yourself a bit more space, not pressing so much? You will get rid of the pain, for sure. Try to have faith in the process and not measure success all the time!

 

Thanks for noticing that reprieve (brief as it was) and for doing what I think was the best thing to do in that circumstance: cry. I don't think words exist to fill that space that tears can so wonderfully occupy. Hope you have more of those reprieves.