Help

This is my first post on this forum. I first discovered the concept of TMS years back, while living in Russia, at about age 25. I had already dealt with about 7 years of mysterious back pain, and migraines since the age of 9, which a litany of testing did nothing to address. (It was all done at Columbia-Presbyterian, where I grew up in NYC, among the best hospitals in the nation). All of the TMS models stuck like glue, but I had very little means to seek real guidance with it, so I adopted some of the principles, and moved on. A few years later, I used a very similar approach to treating years of substance abuse/addiction, and it proved far more effective than any of the previous “brain disease” or 12-step models.

Still, the chronic pains, while minor and dulled, never went away. This winter, after what was a few years of tremendous upheaval, both joyful and traumatic, bad hip/glute pain and sciatica returned, without any acute cause. I took an approach of slow yoga, meditation, some PT protocols, and frankly, some psychedelic work, and it cleared. Then again, a very stressful life moment hit in April, and it’s been a struggle since. Most recently, it’s sciatica, to the extent that I can barely walk, work or stand up (yet I can still squat 400lbs without issue), along with neck pain, TMJ, tooth pain that comes and goes with the jaw tension, and migraines. I read up on TMS again, and even more, it stuck. I’ve been seen by every physical specialist under the sun. Nothing. I’ve tried reading and meditating more, and nothing’s working.

I am
Singularly obsessed with the pain and tension I’m feeling, and the hopelessness and lack of function accompanying it. I’m not enjoying my work, my farm, my community, my hobbies, my marriage. I’m not overtly suicidal, but I’m not enjoying being alive. This is just horrible.

What are some of the best options or resources for such extreme cases? I have basically unlimited financial resources, and can make time. This has got to stop before it unravels my entire life. I’m really scared.

Thank you for any help or advice. Blessings,
Jim

 

Hi Jim,

I feel your pain...

I am struggling as well....

I just lost my Mom (four months ago) and recently (1 month ago) my job. I was fired unfairly and when I went file unemployment my boss (who attended my Mom's funeral) LIED about what happened and tried to roll me under the bus with false testominals from her family co workers...I worked for a tax company family owned..As they say blood is thicker than water.

My point is my am SCARED out of my mind...Trying to pay bills with no money and feel hurt as hell for a tax company who I bent over backwards for and gave my all too.

My symptons...TMJ, jaw poping and shifting...Thumb pain, and now knee pain....Plus SCIATIC nerve pain in either leg...

It is like a karma wheel....The most of it being in my TMJ and then in my Sciatic...

Don't give up...I am not but, I feel you...I am sure that there will be someone on the site to help you with advise...I am starting to list to hypnosis CD on LOVING MYSELF cause I am constantly hard on me....Plus, starting to Journal.

There is a Dr. who deals with mind body...The first thing she says is to EMBRACE your pain...Cause when you try to fight it...It gets worst...What is your pain trying to tell you...

What is going on in your life....

Kalo

 

Have you tried micro-dosing to help break the cycle? There are some really good articles about it.