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Discussion in 'Support Subforum' started by reithar, Sep 10, 2024.

  1. reithar

    reithar Newcomer

    (CW: genital inflammation, masturbation)

    Hi all

    I have had lots of incredible success with TMS over the years, from an instantaneous healing of a 5-year RSI, to chronic fatigue, palpitations and hip pain.

    Currently I'm using TMS treatment techniques on an ongoing foreskin inflammation (balanitis). I've had it checked out at the doctor's who has confirmed it's not an STI, fungal or bacterial and gave me some steroid cream for it which I used for a couple of weeks without effect before realising that it was just another symptom of TMS. 3 nights ago I spent a lot of time journalling / meditating and shifting into the belief system / reality of TMS, that my body is completely well, and the inflammation is the result of trapped emotions that manifest physically as a way of my mind not having to deal directly with the emotions. I had the feeling I get when I really tap into that reality, of a deep knowing and contentment with my body being completely well, and this is normally accompanied by a resolution of the illness, at least temporarily. But despite feeling like I have remained in this mindset for a few days, and acting 'as if' nothing is wrong (no obsessive cleaning regime, no creams, masturbating as much as I like), the symptoms still remain, albeit I'm pretty sure they are much better than they would have been had I been ignoring the cleaning regime etc without being in the TMS mindset. I think I'm just used to faster and more effective results and it's shaking my faith in the process which is the very thing that I know will lead to me getting better. I also wonder if because it's something very physical which I can see, I am perceiving it subconsciously as a more stubbornly physical illness rather than the mind-created thing I consciously know it to be.

    I've been journalling about what could be going on, like to me a genital inflammation is a clear sign that there are some complex repressed emotions around my sexuality. So I'm really trying to get to the bottom of this and relinquish whatever trapped emotions are present. But it's quite stubborn and I would appreciate some inspiration, advice and support with this. I have a date on Saturday and I know setting a time limit on these things is counterproductive so I'm trying to be in the mindset of 'it will take as long as it needs to but healing is inevitable'. But it's difficult!!

    It might also be worth mentioning that my last attempt at healing through these techniques was for eczema which I didn't make much progress with, but because I'm able to manage it pretty easily with moisturiser it was never a priority so I didn't stick with it. But that may be contributing to the belief system that there is something physically wrong with my foreskin. It seems like a similar autoimmune inflammatory illness.

    Thank you & thanks to everyone on this forum, this is the first place I go to with new ailments to search for success stories to help shift my mindset into one where I know I'm completely well!
     
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  2. Diana-M

    Diana-M Beloved Grand Eagle

    Hi @reithar
    You’ve healed before from TMS. That’s great! So you know it works. But now you are in another symptom, and there’s no guarantee it will heal fast. It just means you have more work. It will probably take a lot of journaling. And even therapy. You’ll have to get to the bottom of your rage. It can go all the way back to childhood. Wish it were easier! Believe me. I’m in your shoes.

    Here’s a quick test that is really useful in helping people to know how their upbringing can influence the onset of TMS. https://americanspcc.org/take-the-aces-quiz/ (Take The ACES Quiz - American SPCC)

    If you score high on this, you will probably need professional help to deal with the issues.
     
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  3. reithar

    reithar Newcomer

    Thanks Diana! I'm doing 12 step recovery which synergises really well with getting to the root of the emotional issues of TMS. So I have good tools, I think just the tenacity of this illness is shaking my belief in TMS a bit, but good to have a reminder that it will work, I just need to keep doing the work!!
     
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  4. Diana-M

    Diana-M Beloved Grand Eagle

    That’s great! I’m in a 12-step too. It Does really help! Unfortunately, for some of us, The Work, is quite extensive. But as I like to say, What choice do we have?
     
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  5. JanAtheCPA

    JanAtheCPA Beloved Grand Eagle

    Times change. We change. The world around us is changing rapidly, and not, apparently, for the better.

    IOW, don't downplay the effect on our mental health of the constant stressors provided by the outside world, rapid technology, and information overload.
     
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  6. reithar

    reithar Newcomer

    Thanks Jan, I've been thinking about how when I first read Dr Sarno I felt like I didn't match any of the descriptions of the stressed people. Turns out I'm just great at repressing stuff and thinking everything's fine, very attached to the presentation of myself as a very chill person. Time to keep digging into the repressed stuff!!
     
  7. Diana-M

    Diana-M Beloved Grand Eagle

    You are on the right track!
     
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