I've had enough of the feelings.

I can deal with my kids testing me, coworkers irritating me, patients being rude, my friends being, well, themselves (lol). What I just can't seems to handle is my marriage. I can't handle the tension between my husband and oldest son- it sends me into a rage. I can't handle feeling worthless when I fall short in the intimacy department of my marriage.

If I mention the clear negative bias he has toward my son, suddenly I (and everyone else) "lose my f@+#ing mind every time he says anything to or about Demitri". (His words there)
If I'm upset because my sex drive has yet again flat-lined and I try to talk to him about it, he gets frustrated and says "I don't know what to tell you, we've talked about it so many times" and walks away.

I'm so angry, and hurt, and afraid. I don't want to feel, because feeling gets me nowhere.

 

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