Varying discomforts

It gets wearying. My neck pain has subsided for several days, but I just haven't felt well. I know it is psychological. Heartburn and clumsiness and trembling hands difficulty swallowing. I started googling symptoms of Parkinson's and brain tumors. Never a good road to go down.
I know these are physical manifestations of emotions. Nevertheless, I have trouble masking it, my goodist self , because it is so embarrassing to stammer, or have audible reflux, or stumble when I get up and I am seeing clients.
I have a great deal of difficulty asserting myself with my psycho-pharmacologist. That's one thing. Another think is I have been trying to start a new work initiative (I'm in private practice) and a doc has been helping me get it together, but I'm worried that my ideas are being co-opted. My gut has a feeling of impending dread, my sleep has been restless and I am running out of my sleep medication. My doctor didn't want to allow me to fill it two days early,--two days!--and thouhgt I could tough it out with Benadryl. That sends me into a TMS personality type spiral- he's mad at me! I shouldn't have called! He thinks I am abusing my medication!

 

sometime if we can somehow forget about ourselves for just one week. Focus our thoughts on anyone and anything but us. Whatever happen will happen, and go out there and truly LIVE our live. For just one week we do everything we can to not think about ourselves or our health, for one week we just think about how to please someone else, I believe we will see wonderful thing happen to our health.
Our tms symptoms always intensify when we focus on it. It feed on our focus, our thoughts. Stop feeding it and it will die.

 

This is rather good advice!

 

Thats a great idea Balto…

 

riv

I am in the same boat with my Dr…he would not refill actually I had to go in he wanted to see me before he wrote another script..

 

My fears were in my imagination. I worry too much. I get worked up over nothing sometimes. I have the proper meds. It is interesting that my TMS shifts.

 

What are u taking Riv

 

Gabapentin and cymbalta, which I would like to come off, and ambien, An SSRI for daytime.

 

I was going to try cymbalta with my gaba...how much of each are you taking Riv

 

Were all different but my last Dr. Prescribed Cymbalta on the the advise of a pain specialist I saw. That medicine (Cymbalta),
almost had me convinced I was dying. That Dr. at that time concluded that medicine and I don't mix. So even with meds I tolerate, I don't believe they help at all. They produce something else unwanted!

 

Been doing the work for about a year know no major changes except for dealing with my pain better....going threw alot still with my marriage I finally moved to another room which I find myself sleeping better...but still have pain in my feet no changes I guess I need to keep living and not care

 

thx Markus I guess meds are not the answer...but sometimes we need to take the edge off.

 

Medication is addictive and cures nothing!!!
Thanks to the medical profession I got addicted to bento and it took me a long time to get off it.

 

yes it doesnt...but sometimes you just need a break from the pain?

 

It really depends on your doctor-patient relationship. If someone is inattentive, find another doctor. Medications are very helpful to me. It does me no good to go all anti-meds. I don't take pain meds though. I don't need them since I read Sarno.

 

The marriage problem can be all consuming. It is hard to live with that stress every day. What goes on with your feet?
I think if you judge yourself too much for not recovering, it will cause you pain. IDK maybe stop "doing the work" for a while and give yourself some nurturing.

 

That's what I have been doing ....I am tms out , I am done with the work ..it's seems just to fuel my aggravation with the process ...I live my life more simple don't worry about things not in my control and not care that much for the ones that are...I will let life happen around me and not get sucked into its vortex (TMS) . All the mediation journaling be in touch with your emotions and so on where all great tools of awakening and I appreciate the eye opening experiences it brought...but my healing needs to come from deep inside me where I don't even know where the bottom is!!! Once my life as settle down a bit regarding my divorce and new living arrangements I am sure my I will find the peace and love that I am looking for.