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I know you are relatively new to this, but something you just wrote, shook loose a TRUTH about TMS that I don't think is discussed often enough. I know how hard your working to beat this so I thought I'd tell ya.

I was on a new big project and all of a sudden one day I notice I am limping. I feel like a nail is going up into my heel on every step.
My Body doesn't tell me anything right away, because all of the usual angers and distractions(work, other guys, working with my sons, Deadlines, Money ,etc) are all in place...but THOSE angers are always there... I also am working UP a narrow switchback staircase carrying monstrous amounts of supplies to the top unit making me pissed (there was a wide front staircase we weren't allowed to use) , so my feet are ignored when they start hurting a little...until the Pain is there in every step.

When it becomes a nuisance, I go home and google it. Yep, it comes back 'Plantar Fascitis'... I know from this forum that PF is TMS. OK
NOW the work begins. WTF is making me need a new symptom?
I rule out all of the list I just enumerated because those are EVERY day and this is new.
I listed the staircase, Money, Working with my son, Pressure, heat , everything I knew about
I get the book out and start reading. READ, read, read, read...write , write, write , write, run, run, run , run....and somewhere during the 'therapy' I get the answer! Aha!

The Day the 'nail in the heel' started, I had been on the phone talking to my SISTER. She had been really pissed at my BROTHER about something. I have been trying to make them get along my whole life, but they just hate each other. When she complained to me about my brother being a dick (WHICH I AGREED WITH) I tried to assuage her anger and tell her to calm down and it was all for the best. (LIE< LIE< LIE...she was totally right...he IS a dick and was being extra dickish)

The SECOND I realized when the symptom actually began, IT LEFT. I mean That fricking minute, just like Sarno talking about the woman with bursitis in HBP.

If I didn't know about TMS, would that have happened? No. I would have slowly gotten focused on it, mildly obsessed and seen a Dr. They would have told me what I had and it would have scared me good and might have become a new 'permanent' concern of mine.

This is Detective work..and if individual symptoms are the result of 'specific emotional situations' , the better we get at identifying them, the quicker we can resolve the issue.

I sometimes wonder if Franz Alexander wasn't right about that

" -The patient, in order to be helped, must undergo a corrective emotional experience suitable to repair the traumatic influence of previous experiences. It is of secondary importance whether this corrective experience takes place during treatment in the transference relationship, or parallel with the treatment in the daily life of the patient."

and on our first trip through this, their is a BUNCH of those 'corrective emotional experiences'... then once the pain is GONE you still need to be vigilant about the ones you discovered through your work were the problems.

Last night I saw my ex GF. The one who triggered many TMS attacks.
I can't avoid her... this town isn't big enough. BUT, when I got alone, I reviewed OUT LOUD all of the things that angered me, and I told 'little marc' inside that we are NOT going to have any new symptoms over them. This begins as detective work, like what you are doing...if you are as sensitive as I am, Then you need to stay Vigilant about those...You don't have to hide, or change anything BUT you sure as hell need to 'advertise in your own head' because this stuff is subtle.

Detective work= Recovery ,,, Maintenance work=general great life!

Remember, Sarno said 'I don't treat pain' and 'Todays work prevents tomorrow's TMS'

peace