Recent content by Cherylie

Herbie, I'm new to doing any kind of mental exercise, whether it be called mindfulness, meditation, relaxation.... I'm probably mixing terminology and misusing the nomenclature. "Meditation" has always seemed to difficult to achieve as I've seen it described and practiced, this effortless...

Thanks for the info, njoy. Another interesting concept for processing the past.

My youth was entirely out of control. Moved out of the house when I was 18, before finishing high school. It made me an "adult" to do so. I was in charge of my life, finally. Moved in with a boy four years older - then outgrew him and moved in with a man 20 years older. Yeah, I was in...

What a pleasant surprise to see today is a day "off" from journaling and processing and digging and reliving. I'm sitting outside with the dogs - even though it's an overcast day, I want to be outside, where I belong. This morning I decided I might relax more if I were in a pleasant...

Walt, you spoke so clearly to me with your initial post. The quote, "We have to erase the child we were" is interesting. I've always thought in terms of integrating that sexually abused child. But that means integrating the fears and confusion and rage and shame. I like better the idea that...

Solange, I'm glad you offloaded here. I find it so helpful to see how others struggle - with situations far more grave than my own. That's not to say I enjoy reading of others' pain. I just mean that it helps me with perspective. Sweetie suggested last night that I breathe iiinnnnnnnnn...

:confused: As soon as I "relax" one part of me, another part of me tightens up. I don't even know if I'd recognize true relaxation - I'm never relaxed. One or more of my parts is always on high alert -- ready to spring into action. I can see how the body scan would be helpful at bedtime...

"When you first start confronting your buried emotions, you may find that you become anxious. That was the first thing I noticed on about Day-3 of the SEP: a strange new feeling that I later realized was anxiety, which is another replacement for emotions that you might not want to feel...

Uhhhhhh. Okay. How do you separate "real" from TMS pain? I see a PT I greatly respect - she's a yoga teacher who sees our bodies as one unified system, not as bits and pieces separated from other bits and pieces. I excitedly discussed with her the discovery of Dr. Sarno - who she...

My ultra-cool neurosurgeon - top of his game, only the best staff, son of the founder of the practice - said the most upsetting thing to me of all, and it was the delivery as much as the content that sent me into a panic. I had such bad neck pain and nerve pain into my hands that I was ready...

Seth, I hope you're still around, monitoring your responses. I'm on Day 4 - and that child you described? I have one just like him. I spent my ENTIRE CHILDHOOD holding on to the fantasy that someone, someday, would realize how awful my life was and swoop down and save me. I dreamed of...

I.... think I'm doing the multi-day online "workbook" of reading and journaling. Is that the SEP? I must admit, it's easy to lose my way in the interlinked (no complaint about that - it's great) pages. I have on order three books, all of which I expect to arrive this week, one of which is...