Fabi

Hi everyone,
I feel today after writing my story a few weeks ago, that it was incomplete.
So here it is as I can acknowledge it:
Back in 1999, as I was in my 7th pregnancy month, I had a strong pain in my mouth, I thought it was a mole so I was treated by a dentist, who did Xrays and concluded nothing was wrong and prescribed pain killers. The pain had also taken my left cheek and parietal bone.
The pain only finished after my baby was born in a Cesarean and the pain killers I got then "killed" all the pain.
The next year, a stabbing pain in my belly, right on the right side of my C scar appeared. Ultrasound revealed a "mass". I went through laparoscopic diagnostic surgery, that revealed "nothing" was the cause of my pain. Now I have the same pain, and I know it is my chronic bowel syndrome. At that time, my child was 1 year old and my marriage was getting to a dead end.
I began my life as a single parent a year later after divorce and I had several faringitis treated with antibiotics, almost once a month!!!

Later in 2008, I began to feel the pain in my left cheek and mandibular bone, all the teeth in that area as well. I wasn unable to talk, laugh, sip, eat, chew, etc normally without feeling pain, fear of pain or actual restriction in the movement.
I couldn´t link this pain with the one I had had 9 years before until a few years later. That was the beginning of being diagnosed with TMJ syndrome. It meant pain, changes in my job as an English teacher high school, lots of money on splints and treatment by a specialist 400km away from my town. This last only lasted for a few months, after my 5 th visit when my jaw opening had been reduced. The doctor terminated the treatment and said I should visit a psychiatrist.

Back home, alone, in pain and desperate I received help from an osteopath. She really helped me, but my diagnoses was "forever, not possible to get a definite cure, just some relief"

Then, last year began the story I identified as the "main one" just because it has been ongoing for the last 9 months.

So I wrote "My story started with painful symptoms last August after I did some gardening with a tall plant that left my left arm, neck and head in pain. I started physiotherapy and it went worse. Vertigo and tinnitus added to my previous symptoms. After months of medication, I had hepatitis thanks to the medicines. I stopped them now. I am recovering my liver and struggling to get any of the books you mention which are not available in my country.
I received a helpful link to a series of videos by a therapist in the US. I am still trying to accept I am part of the problem. I did a lot of journaling while I was at home during the last two weeks.
Every comment is welcomed!"

Now I see the chain of painful events in my life are connected to each other and I can see what was happening in my life that I couldn´t bare to recognize as painful emotions.

Last week I woke up after spending an afternoon and night in bed watching TV just because I felt like it , with a clear pain in my back and an impossibility to bend down. Immediately I felt it was my brain causing another distraction, but since I had been told watching TV in bed could cause pain and rigidity in my lower back and neck, I felt it!

I talked to myself, I was happy I got the first chance to be aware of my pain as a "masquerade" for my feelings. So I applied some heat in the area, did a few stretching exercises and in two hours I was ready to go "free of pain".

Later developments showed very impressive images of my neck. Two discs against my spine and the inversion of the "normal" neck curve (don´t know if that´s the term) left my doctor with big eyes and mouth. I do have an image, also from my jaw and head, showing causes for migranes, neuropathic pain, head and jaw pain, arms and neck, and higher back pain.
that´s all . Diagnoses confirmed.