This morning before i listened to the recording with Brandon, I read Alan’s piece on outcome independence. For some ego-driven reason, I forget what it is! Really. Totally blank. It’s “Change your definition of success. Work on it. Success is no longer measured by whether or not you have a good walk. Success is measured by how little you care.” So, if I am not pressuring myself to be perfect, to be clever, to be fit, to be liked, to heal my pain, to be thin, to be wise, to be pretty, to never age... then, I am ceasing to measure myself by success but rather, to measure success by the degree to which I let go, accept, detach. Accept, let go, detach. This, I can practice. I watch my adrenaline addiction like a tennis match. Back and forth, winding up, down, up and down. I am so much better at catching it before I get pain but if I do, the pain IS a spotlight, showing me something, usually my own judgemental mind: aiming arrows at me.