Day 8

I am on Day 8 today. SEP asked if I recognized where the pain is coming from. I can see where it comes with tension/anger/rage/worry that builds up in me. I just need to get better at brushing it off and ignoring it. I have been on vacation the last few days, and just got home this afternoon. The first day of vacation my back was aching just a wee bit, grew less and less as vacation progressed. I had one bout of sciatic that kicked in, but my third day of walking on the beach it only reared its ugly head for a few seconds and disolved as I warned it away and walked on. However last night my neck and back were aching to be cracked and this morning with vacation coming to a close and all my worries coming back about getting back to household chores and work have my back aching pretty much since I woke up today. I have forced myself to not crack my neck or back and journaled tonight. I really really want to crack them. It's tougb. Finished Healing Back Pain book yesterday and 1/3 thru The Great Pain Deception. My sciatic pain moves, but my low back seems to be the same spot. I wish it would move and/or feel differently so I can blame TMS on it, but so far it hasn't moved. It almost feels like an internal "crusty" muscle pain. I don't want to track my pain. I just want it to dissipate. Now that I am home and will be up and moving around a lot more and getting on the tennis courts I feel like I will start to progress more by being active. Vacation was basically reading, eating, walking beach, and napping. i have high hopes, this pain that has came up today will go away sooner than later.

 

Hi, Kathe. Your vacation relaxed you. Your pains are back because you are letting yourself worry again about them. It's great that you will be playing tennis again. Activities like that will help you to heal. It isn't our emotional stresses that cause us pain. It's how we react to them. We just need to accept them, then go on with our lives, without monitoring their strength. I think you are doing great.

 

Thank you Walt and Jan for the vote of confidence and advice. I am moving forward to Day 9 with more confidence in my healing. Today I worked on a bathroom remodel and it felt good to be exerting myself doing home improvements. Tomorrow I am back to work and look forward to whatever it brings.

 

Hi, Kathe. It's great that you did some remodeling in the bathroom. That gives you a big boost of morale and confidence. When I was home alone one T Thanksgiving, I painted the overhead pipes in my basement orange so I would see them and not hit my head on them anymore. Doing the painting while listening to music and drinking a couple of beers turned a bummer day into a good one. Keeping busy has always been good for me.

Hope you have a good day back at work.