I have been battling really intense depression and anxiety for a while now, but the last few days it has completely gotten out of control. Yesterday I was overcome with such intense depression, that I could not get out at all during the day. All I could do is just sit around and think about my TMS and how it is never going away. During the evening, I decided to do some intensive journaling to get my feelings out, and I really hit something big because I was overcome with sadness and broke out crying....and the depression went completely away, just like that. Than 20 minutes later...I was hit with the worst anxiety I've ever experienced. I could not keep calm and had horrible racing thoughts. It turned into full blown panic attacks, I could not get to sleep all night. I couldn't stop thinking that I was going to be in this intense mental agony for the rest of my life and there wasn't a thing I could do about it, which just made me freak out even more. I was very very close to going to the ER. It seriously got so bad it got to the point where I just didn't want to be alive anymore. I tried over and over again to go over Alan Gordon's Pain Recovery program and apply the concepts to my symptoms, and read through Dr. Schubiner's Unlearn Your Anxiety and Depression, BUT NOTHING WORKED! What do I do here????